Quinn
07-15-2005, 09:51 PM
I have not been here in a while. Much has changed. I have HCM, 52 mm left atria, a whole lot of Afib (non focal). First 15 years only rate control and no AF. Last four years increasing AF until I was given Norpace a year ago. Norpace reduced the frequency of AF but it contnues. I am very symptomatic when in AF. Now on 600mg Norpace daily, Verapimil, Torprol, Lasiks, Coumadin. Understand each.
Two weeks ago I thought I was in another bout of Afib. Went in and discovered I was in heart failure. It felt bad. Could not walk, lift my arms, speak softly. They fixed me up and after a couple of days sent me home. Now the question is what next?
I will meet next Wed with my EP doctor who has consulted with my cardiologist and others for options to manage the AF. My challenge is I keep hearing from the PA's and Nurses, and some doctor comments that "treating AF is difficult just with healthy hearts and your heart isn't healthy..." well that leaves me wondering is there some hope for... what I can't even explain.
I imagine I am normal in that I want a fix, I want to live a long time, and I want to not live with this monkey on my back. It is the shock of heart failure, the physical decline I have experienced in the year I have been on norpace, and the lack of optimism (institutional as well as personal) that confronts me now.
What am I looking for? Knowledge and hope...can you share some?
Two weeks ago I thought I was in another bout of Afib. Went in and discovered I was in heart failure. It felt bad. Could not walk, lift my arms, speak softly. They fixed me up and after a couple of days sent me home. Now the question is what next?
I will meet next Wed with my EP doctor who has consulted with my cardiologist and others for options to manage the AF. My challenge is I keep hearing from the PA's and Nurses, and some doctor comments that "treating AF is difficult just with healthy hearts and your heart isn't healthy..." well that leaves me wondering is there some hope for... what I can't even explain.
I imagine I am normal in that I want a fix, I want to live a long time, and I want to not live with this monkey on my back. It is the shock of heart failure, the physical decline I have experienced in the year I have been on norpace, and the lack of optimism (institutional as well as personal) that confronts me now.
What am I looking for? Knowledge and hope...can you share some?